Alone… Lonely… Two alike yet very different words. To be alone or to be lonely isn’t the same thing. When I was a little kid, I used to be super shy and not very social person, so many times I did feel lonely even though I have grown up in a big family with 3 other siblings.
Do you believe in past lives? Do you believe that you had a past life, that you’re a traveller in time? I do…
Dear 2016, I’m breaking up with you and I’m happy to do so… Dear 2016, you’ve been a very strange, exhausting year, you’ve hurt me and so many of those whom I love… You took away too many precious lives, smiles, happiness, things and brought way too much darkness and struggles.
Look at that, less than 2 weeks left until Christmas! The countdown is “on”! As I have already mentioned, I’ve been loving seeing the Christmas lights, decorations, etc. all over the city and am still in the process of decorating my own home for Christmas too. We got a small Christmas tree with some girly ornaments and all that needs to be done is to take some chilled back moment with my daughter to put it all up nicely.
If you wish to follow my daily adventures and small highlights of any random day, do follow me on @natakar Instagram profile. There will be also great giveaways starting as of today, so keep your eyes on it! 🙂 One of the things I’ll be giving away is a star of today’s outfit, but I won’t reveal it all just yet. 😀
For some reason, the past week I’ve come across two big contrasts in people’s personalities: the kindness, humbleness as well as pretentiousness, egoism and no compassion for others. My brain and soul are of such kind which never stop thinking, feeling, wondering and live through everything 100%, so the processing of some people and situations might take a while for me… This time of the year, just a little bit before Christmas is when I’m more than ever sensitive to cold, be it from the weather or from the people’s personalities, both get to me strongly.
Some years ago, I had this internal fight with myself that I have to do everything perfectly, that I need to be perfect and that only when these two are “all perfect”, I’ll get to where I want to be in life and I’ll get what I want from life… NOT!
First of all, there’s no such thing as perfection since I’m not a god, I’m just a human with tons of flaws. My flaws will be a great match to some other people’s flaws and they’ll see them as something fun, interesting and nothing near bad or disturbing. My flaws will also be of annoyance to others and since I can’t and am “too old” to want to anymore people please or try to blend in to perfectly do or fit in somewhere, I’ll rather call it a day and concentrate to get the best of my flaws and share it with people who love me for me.
I’m a girl which never takes a break… I will always keep on going at all costs. Heck, sometimes I don’t even take a break to cry and have a proper “breakdown” moment, but I deal with everything on the go or by swiping it “under the carpet” until I can, at some point, deal with it.
I just ride, ride and ride, I succeed, I fail, I get disappointed or I get proud, about myself or about people which I encounter… But I feel that I never take a proper moment to just “be” and process everything that’s happened, good or bad, people which I’ve met, etc.