If you’ve been reading my blog and following my photography work for a while now, you might have noticed that I’m a very emotional person… Somebody who wears her heart on her sleeve, somebody who “triple feels” everything so deeply… When I was little, I’ve been always told to suppress my feelings, to not show them easily and not to everybody. Do you think I’ve learned how to do that? Nope, but I did learn something else… How to mask my feelings.
So many times I’ve been editing my own outfit photos for the blog and thinking to myself that if only people would know what happened before or after those photos were shot. How many emotions there are masked behind one look…. Behind a smile… I had some of the most challenging and hardest times in the past two – three years, but I always had a smile ready for everybody, I always had a “I’m fine” story ready for everybody and I always wanted to believe that I don’t carry all of the world’s problems, so I shouldn’t complain or pity myself, but just suck it up, mask my feelings and keep on going.
This was until I have realised that my “masking” didn’t bring me much happiness either. So many times people whom were near me got wrong vision about me, not knowing why I had to postpone, cancel, etc. our meetings, going out, movies… I don’t think that we should rub our pain, tears and sadness to anybody’s faces, nobody needs to feel “sorry” for us, but to open up a little bit more, stop masking so many situations and problems and just speak up… Once I’ve started to speak up about my feelings, about my troubles and things that are weighing me down, I have realised that I got so much more comfort, strength and unexpected love and acceptance from my closest people. So many times after choosing not to mask a moment or feeling I’m going through, I have helped by sharing my troubles and story to a close friend or my family. We are all in the same boat… One day we’re up, the next day we might be down, but that’s why we were sent some special people, angels in specific times in our lives, to watch over us and help lift us up when we’re down and cheer for us once we’re up and “running” wild and free again.
Remember my dears, those who can’t handle you at your worst, don’t deserve you at your best. The sooner you stop masking your feelings ,fears, worries and open up, the sooner you’ll know which people in your life are worth your time and emotions and which ones are not.
Have a great new week everybody and I hope that you’ve been liking my motivation/ inspiration posts every Monday. 🙂