Stepping outside… Fresh, crisp Fall air hits my cheeks and the sunny, but cold rays of sunshine blindfold me for a moment as I start walking off into yet another day of 12-ish hours of breathing, living, moving, feeling, dreaming… Consciously, until I fall asleep and do all of that unconsciously. I believe that we never wake up, we’re always in the state of some kind of “Winter’s sleep”, just that our imagination runs wilder during the night as we’re sleeping.
So many times I’ve been through situations in life which made me say: “I wish this was all just a bad dream.” This October rang in with bad news for one of my closest friends and reminded me of, in general bad year that me and people I love have struggled with. When I was little, I used to think that if you’re a good person – good things happen to you, if you’re a bad person, bad things happen to you, simple as that.
Little did I know that good people have their hearts ripped open and suffer way much more often, than not. While we’re great in covering up what’s happening to us by standing incredibly strong, painting a smile over our faces, the darkness and sadness from the inside can’t be hidden, because the eyes are spitting them out bit by bit and only one good look into somebody’s eyes will tell you more than they could ever tell with words.
This October is my birthday month… It’s my last year as 20-something woman and next year, I’ll round up the “big” 3-0. I have no problems with numbers, they’re just silly numbers and if I’m planning to live until I’m 80, then I have about 51 more years to go and that’s a loooong time, but what does bug me about turing one year older each October is a question to myself if I’ve accomplished enough, learned and listened enough, traveled enough, cared and loved enough through that one year time…?!
I always get a little bit anxious thinking that another year goes by and I still don’t feel that I can say “YES” as an answer to all of these questions. I feel as if life is moving at such a fast pace that I can’t even keep up with and my heart wants so much, but too often unlucky circumstances stop me from being and doing where I want to be and what I want to do.
This October all I want for myself, my closest family and friends is to be able to put an end to the bad happenings, bad luck, bad year, bad dream… and be able to “wake up” next October and finally say that there was a change and that we did have the best year by far in our lives.
I want that that this October marks the moment when me and everyone I love will have it easier, will be able to travel more, listen and learn more, feel more, experience more, care, love and give more… I want to be unconsciously dreaming the best year of my life so that I can ultimately be the best person I can be and that I can accomplish my main “role” I’ve come for to this earth and that’s to live to inspire and make a change/ difference in people’s lives.
October files – yet to be written… here is the page nr 1, let’s do this…
I’m wearing: Bag ( HERE ), Boots ( HERE ), Bracelet ( HERE ), Scarf ( HERE ), Sweater & skirt ( SIMILAR & SIMILAR ) , Ring ( HERE )
- Thank you to SPALT PR Helsinki and Riikka
Love the black and white colors, the sweater is very cute!
The Flower Duet
Thank you very much!!
Great look babe! Kisses
Thanks so much!
Loving the red and black color combo and that bag is so fabulous!!
Thank you Jennifer! Yes, the bag was a love at first sight and of such a great quality too!
Very beautiful location and I like your style, nice scarf! Xo
Thank you very much Vanessa!
PErfect look for autumn! I need to get such a petrol=grey sweater. It looks simply wow
Thank you very much Adriana, I’m so happy to read that you liked my outfit and sweater. 🙂
I hope that you have a MUCH better October, but I totally know what you mean. I feel this way about February! Such a hard month.
The Adored Life
Thank you very much Alissa, I appreciate your kind words! I hope that you will have a great month too!
Love your bag. Fits perfect to your outfit.
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Valentina | DAILY SUIT
Thanks Valentina! Greetings to Berlin! 🙂
I certainly hope you have a happier year ahead of you! Have a wonderful birthday (I’m an October Baby too 🙂 ) xxx
Thank you Miranda, you are so sweet! Happy our birthday month to you as well! 😀
E draga moja, mislim da se poprilično identično osjećamo ovih dana. Meni isto dani lete ko ludi i imam dojam da, bez obzira koliko mislim da sve ide kako želim, zapravo toliko toga važnog ne uspijevam napraviti i ni sama trenutačno ne znam kako da se postavim prema tome. Predivna si mi ovdje, taj šal je čisto zlato ako se mene pita i držim fige da nam se svima ostvari ovo što si navela i sretan ti slavljenički mjesec! xx
A joj… Bas je neka ludna situacija i def. prekretnica. Nadam se da ce ti se cim prije sve posloziti i da ces znati “di-sta-kako” sa svojim planovima i opcenito trenutacno situacijom. Saljem ti puno pusa i pozdrava, uvijek me razveselis svojim komentarima, komplimentima i lipim ricima. <3
You look wonderful hun!
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Thank you Nada!
Love that nice scarf and bag xx 🙂
Thanks a bunch! 🙂
Happy birthday month! Sorry to hear your friend got some bad news. Cool outfit!
Straight A Style
Thank you my dear Amy! Many kisses!
Love your sweater 😀
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Karen @ Lookbook Store WordPress
Love your sweater, looks so cozy!
Thanks, it really is soft, cozy and warm! 🙂
Love this outfit! Cute bag 🙂
Thank you Laura!
Such a fun look! I am loving that skirt! I have been looking for a longer denim skirt! Too cute and your hair looks gorgeous!
Thanks so much my sweet Shannon!!
Great outfit. Love the sweater and your hair looks lovely. xoxoxo
Thank you my dear! 🙂
Blonde in Cashmere
Thank you Vera!!
great post. I am the same way – I try to say yes to everything but a little part inside of me wonders if it is enough…
I love that chunky sweater. Looks great with that beautiful red scarf! And I can’t tell you how much I identify with the post…both long term and just recently with some surprise challenges. I do have to say though that being in my thirties has been WAY better than the twenties. And was definitely a time that I grew to learn how to better process those feelings and tell myself yes, I wish I’d done x, y, and z, but the things I did do I can appreciate and be happy with as long as I know I did my personal best, including cutting myself some slack along the way. Have a great week!:)
I really hope these bad things will leave very soon!
Fabrizia – Cosa Mi Metto???
love the pops of red with the black!
Life is just Rosie
That scarf is gorgeous!Love the pop of color! =)
Mermaid in Heels
I love your boots Natali!! And this location is so cool!!
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I hope October treats you well this year! Happy early birthday, it’s my birthday month too!
Tamara – LoveofMode.com
Literally in love with this outfit! Xo
This is such a nice outfit! Especially with the pops of red colour.
I just found myself scrolling through your blog forever <3
Such a beautiful look! Love how you styled the rain boots. So chic!
I love sweaters too. They are so cozy and comfortable, just for such a cold fall weather. Your outfit is very stylish. Like this post!
This is so beautiful! You look gorgeous!
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Apprezzo moltissimo questo stile ed il tuo look.
Hai combinato perfettamente i colori, le forme ed i tagli.
Durante i miei corsi illustro tutti i meccanismi di Consulenza d immagine che tu hai interprato in maniera perfetta.
Molto molto brava e veramente bella.
Lo affermo in qualità di Consulente d’immagine senza alcun dubbio.
Stunning look, babe!! I love those boots.
Chis style for autumn <3
xoxo, Cool man style
It’s lovely to see you wearing your black Tights and Rubber Wellingtons in the rain you look gorgeous, I always slip my Wellingtons on at the slightest hint of rain and my Tights never get splashed.