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Right to live

May 19, 2015

Turning back and forth in my bed… It’s the middle of the night, or some would say early in the morning. No matter what I’ve tried to do ( like count the invisible sheep village ), I just can’t get myself to fall asleep again. Nice! Only 4 hours of sleep, it will be a “fun” day of zombie like looks and low energy levels. I check my phone and it’s showing 4:30 am.

Oh well, what else should I do at 4:30 am? I could maybe check what’s that notification from FaceBook showing me that I got a message from my sister. The message reads that our uncle has passed away… Well, now def. I won’t be able to fall asleep so I got up and have decided to make some hot tea for myself. While the kettle was boiling my tea water, I couldn’t but just sit at the sofa and think… Think about life, death, birth and how fast things happen that we can’t even prepare ourselves for most of them. The kettle has already stopped boiling but I just couldn’t stop thinking about all of these thoughts and feelings that have been going through my mind and heart.

I have lost a contact with my now late uncle many years ago. There were some deep family issues which drew me to stay away from him and never speak to him again. It was for better for everybody, but I did get saddened about two months ago when I got to hear that he was fighting a cancer. Not long after those news I was being told that it was chest cancer that he was fighting and that it has rapidly progressed and he’s gonna have only couple of more months left to live.

As I have already mentioned in my previous posts, I will be going to Croatia for holidays and couple of times I had a thought of paying him a visit cross my mind. I guess I just wanted to tell him that I don’t hold any grudge towards him and that he can “go” in peace whenever is the time. Now, I’m not the only person that he made deeply sad or offended through all these years, but I know that it would have helped him on his deathbed to at least know that some of his closest relatives and family members forgive him for how he made us feel.

He died alone… In the same hospital in which his own mother passed away only couple of years ago. Scary story, but very much real. The reason why I wanted to write this kind of post is to remind you my dear people and at the same time remind myself that what you give out is what you get back, the way how you treat others is how you’ll be treated in the end… No matter what happens to you and no matter how many times you get hurt or “knocked” down, always get up, smile and be even kinder and nicer than before. World needs more of that. There’s so much hate and anger everywhere. People don’t even realise how all of that consumes them inside out. Then what happens is that people start to look for salvation at all the wrong places and among the “plastic” things than inside their own hearts and hearts of others.

We were all given the right to live, the right to breathe and do whatever we want, but we were not given the right to decide how long we can walk this earth and little do we know if tomorrow is our last day here!!

I def. got shook up a lot and the passing of my uncle made me re-think really hard how I’m living my life… Am I living the life that I want or that others want me to live? Am I really paying attention to everything and everybody around me or am I sometimes too much consumed into my phone, laptop and career plans?

Do I find enough of time to just be in the moment, be aware of the beauty that surrounds me? Who knows when is my time to end this journey?! I better from now on just live-breathe-eat-piss and shit my truth, my grace and LIVE life to the fullest.

“Dance like nobody’s watching, love like you’ll never get hurt, sing like there’s nobody listening and live like it’s heaven on earth.”

I’m wearing: Sandals – Gucci, Skirt – American Apparel, Blouse – Samuji, Bracelet – JCrew, Bag – Zara, Ring – House of Harlow 1960, Earrings – Chanel

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24 Comments

  • Reply Ivana May 19, 2015 at 11:08 PM

    Mislim da je oprost jedno od najjacih i najciscih oblika ljubavi. Nazalost, cesto se taj isti oprost poistovjecuje s gluposcu ili naivnoscu ili slaboscu… ja stvarno ne mislim tako i duboko vjerujem da sreca lezi u istome. Da naucimo oprostiti sebi, drugima, svijetu… tek tada mozemo istinski spoznati pravu ljubav… onu nesebicnu… ๐Ÿ™‚

    Sad mi je totalno neprirodno napisati nesto o outfitu ali sta ces… suknjica mi je divna i super ide uz ovu kosuljicu. Svidja mi se ta voluminoznost suknjice i bas je kao stvorena za ljeto. Jako, jako lijepa kombinacija! Pusica i ne zaboravi se smijesiti!:*

  • Reply sand May 20, 2015 at 2:08 AM

    The skirt is super ๐Ÿ™‚

    Bisous from France,
    Sand.

    http://www.taimemode-fashionblog.com

  • Reply Eye See Euphoria May 20, 2015 at 5:04 AM

    Beautiful post and I agree with everything you stated. Prayers to your family. Thanks for sharing and be sure to check out our latest feature.

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  • Reply Diana May 20, 2015 at 6:27 AM

    Cute outfit, love the bag and accessories! x
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  • Reply Amy Ann May 20, 2015 at 6:51 AM

    I am sorry about your uncle and sorry that it was painful for you. Family tensions are hard, and things like this always make us think. Life is short in the grand scheme of things. I hope you are doing alright today. I love your white, tan, and grey combo here.

    Amy Ann
    Straight A Style

  • Reply alice May 20, 2015 at 9:16 AM

    So interesting!

    Alice Cerea,
    BABYWHATSUP.COM

  • Reply Toks May 20, 2015 at 9:17 AM

    So sorry about your loss, even if you weren’t close any more. I totally agree with you about karma, though. Love this simple skirt and top outfit, you look so fresh. xoxoxo

  • Reply Hannah May 20, 2015 at 9:50 AM

    What a lovely outfit, your makeup looks beautiful!
    Dimples Diaries // Sustainable Fashion & Lifestyle Blog
    x

  • Reply Camille Normandin May 20, 2015 at 12:56 PM

    Loving the purse, effortless look!
    xx Camille

    https://www.fashiontartare.ca

  • Reply Francesca May 21, 2015 at 12:03 AM

    Lovely outfit. Such sad news about your uncle but you wrote a good message ๐Ÿ™‚ Nice post I enjoyed reading.

    xx opinionslave.com

  • Reply Mikayla May 21, 2015 at 6:32 AM

    Very sophisticated look…looks great on you!
    xx

    -Mikayla
    https://thetastetracker.wordpress.com

  • Reply justine k May 21, 2015 at 9:05 AM

    I just adore this idea with a shirt!

  • Reply Yasmin May 21, 2015 at 12:50 PM

    I definitely agree it’s important to live in the moment. But it’s also important to plan for the future at times – like this time where you can decide to invest more time in your loved ones. What goes around comes around, right? Anyways, you look great in the photos and I love your bracelet!

    xx Yasmin
    https://banglesandbungalows.com

  • Reply jamie May 21, 2015 at 1:49 PM

    sorry for your loss. you look beautiful, love those sandals.
    xo
    Jamie
    http://www.candystilettos.com

  • Reply Larissa May 21, 2015 at 1:59 PM

    Great words, dear!
    It’s hard, but so much better when you live in the moment.
    I find myself making pics a lot and forgetting to take a breathe and just see and feel what I am doing. That’s sad.
    I was on vacation last week and luckily I was able to live in the moment at times. But still, time goes fast!!
    So lucky we have memories ๐Ÿ˜‰
    xo.
    FROM HATS TO HEELS
    http://www.fromhatstoheels.com

  • Reply Marta Pozzan May 21, 2015 at 4:43 PM

    Prayers for your family. And try not to overthink things. Just live in the present. And continue to work hard for the things you want:)
    M..

    https://www.itssuperfashion.com/2015/05/cannes-marciano/

  • Reply sahra May 22, 2015 at 6:58 AM

    great look! that skirt looks cozy!

    XO Sahra
    Que Sera Sahra

  • Reply Aditi Oberoi Malhotra May 23, 2015 at 12:43 AM

    Love how you styled it and the skirt is fabulous!

    https://www.fancycorrectitude.com/

  • Reply Lauren May 24, 2015 at 7:54 AM

    Beautiful post. It’s so easy to get caught up with all the drama of life and forget to enjoy. A death can bring home to you how fast things change. Hope your doing ok
    Lauren
    livinginaboxx

  • Reply Edelwess May 26, 2015 at 9:02 AM

    You are elegant …. xx

  • Reply Julieanne May 29, 2015 at 4:37 PM

    Love your outfit!! the bag is seriously awesome!!

  • Reply Madge May 31, 2015 at 10:58 PM

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  • Reply Sheela Goh June 13, 2015 at 6:51 PM

    I’m sorry to hear not only of your uncle’s passing but of your internal dilemma on whether or not to reach out to him, and to have that option taken away from you. I too am/was in a similar situation but the difference is that I have absolutely no intention whatsoever to reconnect with mine. The main thing is that whatever the decision we choose, it must be something we are comfortable with and can live with. No matter, you have my warmest thoughts and a hug ๐Ÿ™‚

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