Good Monday morning everybody! How was your weekend? I hope that you had as much fun and great times as I did. I feel that I was all over the place ever since September started and I’ve been very happy and thankful for that, because I’ve met some incredibly amazing and inspiring people, I’ve spent lots of time with friends, attended some cool events and did tons of work as well as my conceptual photography shooting/ planning and agreeing on the future shoots. I’m set on having an exhibition next year in Spring and if everything goes well and as planned, creating it will keep me very occupied and hopefully on the top of my creative game until the end of this year.
Good Wednesday everybody! I felt like writing just a “chit-chat” kind of post and also present you my love for these espadrilles. I have literally spent half of my Summer in them, they’re so comfy and I can combine them with almost anything in my closet. If you haven’t, I can wholeheartedly suggest you to invest in a pair of good espadrilles.
I’m 28 and am only 3 months away from my 29th birthday. I can honestly say that I’m excited to start the last year of my 20s. I’m loving the woman I’m becoming and I’m loving the outlook on life I’ve been carving by collecting all of the ups and downs, learning about my weaknesses and recognising my strengths… I don’t know why is everybody making a big deal about 30s because I can’t wait for my 30s and all of the smarts and confidence that come with them.
Olen 28 vuotias ja 3 kuukauden päässä 29 vuotis synttäreistäni. Ja voin rehellisesti sanoa että olen innoissani siitä että viimeinen vuosi on alkamassa ennen kolmekyppisiäni. Rakastan sitä naista joksi minä olen muuttumassa. Ja rakastan sitä elämänkatsomusta jota olen veistämässä itselleni keräämällä ylä- ja alamäkiä matkallani. Opin ymmärtämään heikkouteni ja vahvuuteni… En oikeen ymmärrä sitä että miksi kaikki tekevät siitä niin suuren numeron että täyttää kolmekymmentä. Maltan tuskin odottaa sitä hetkeä ja sitä viisautta ja itsevarmuutta jonka se tuo mukanaan.
I grew up in a small village, while that was a blessing because I was protected at all times and I had a huge freedom of living a carefree childhood, playing for as long as I wanted outdoors, hiding in the forest, just sitting by the sea for an hour or even staying at my friend’s place over for lunch without having to inform my family about it ( there was no cellphones but only phones and after only few phone calls around, my parents would know where I was at ). To some extent, growing up in such a small and closed community, it was a bit of problem for me later on in my life. I was scared of being introduced to new people or go out in a big group of people.
Today I felt like taking a small break from my usual Monday inspiration posts and do something else instead. I’d like to share with you couple of facts about me which you might find interesting or could relate to. 🙂 I hope that you had a great weekend and are ready to kick off this new week with lots of energy and good inspiration flow. *Finnish text in the bottom.
Do you have those days in your life when you think that you’ve “cracked” the code? When you think that you totally got this thing called “life” and what it’s all about. I mean, there has never been more self-help books or inspirational speakers than there are nowadays, all of them teaching you something about life. Their “how to” books on what to do so that you would be happy or what to do so that you would succeed, how to this or how to that… I mean, we can’t be that lost?
You must have experienced those days when you think that everything is just falling perfectly in place, you have a clear vision about everything and you’re in a peace with everybody around you? If the answer is yes, well, congrats, at times, I have those days too… At times I have those kind of days when I’m somewhere in between, in a way as things aren’t maybe happening as fast as I have expected, but they’re still “moving”. Or in a way where I think that you know that person ain’t that correct in how they speak or act, but it ain’t anything real bad to not give them another chance… Or in a way where I have tried to solve this one problem for quite a while now, but hey, there are worser things in life I could be dealing with now.
Then there are those days like the ones that I’m going through right now… When your head hurts from thinking too much, from questioning too much… Those days when you think that everything you thought you knew or understood about life and people was completely wrong. Those days when you think that you could have done so many things differently and even though I don’t like to dwell in the past, sometimes it’s so hard to get rid of the past, because your past actions and choices are affecting the “today” that you’re living in right now.
Yep, not the most uplifting post, but one that I wanted to write down and start a conversation with you my readers… What do you do on those days when they look like a big, blurry mess…? When all of the lines are so intertwined that you have no idea how to separate what’s the “head thinking” and what are the “whisperings of the heart” and how to put these two back in sync with each other?
I’m all about positivity, inspiring people however and whenever I can, but I must say that I’m really tired of all of the “How to” books because what if there is no secret formula for having your thoughts, feelings and life in perfect order? What if it’s absolutely normal to feel and find yourself in a situation where you question if anything ever made sense in your life and it’s absolutely normal to find yourself in a situation in which you tap yourself on the shoulder and feel as if you’re the king of the world.
What if it’s good to every now and then have those days where you’re questioning everything? Aren’t those possibly the moments when you’re “growing”, when you’re indirectly admitting to yourself that you might have been smarter about some things/ choices, that not everybody will be as great as you’ve imagined them to be? Maybe it’s actually necessary to have those days when you’re completely lost? Isn’t that those are the moments when you’re about to see a brighter light on the new path that’s just uncovering in front of you?!
I have survived before those “How to” books, so I think that I’ll be fine now too… My blurry situation and unanswered questions might be in a completely different shape in a week from now and life will again look different and more “understandable” than it is right now. I also believe that we will never really “crack” the code of what life is or how it should be. Living it as honestly, simple and as kind as possible is all that matters…
Bag by Borsha, get a similar bag -> BORSA by Mala Radnja Dizajna
Lately, I’ve encountered some situations and people which made me often think about one specific subject: “fear”! I wonder, when did we stop being these fearless kids who would do all sorts of “crazy” things and not fear the outcome of our adventures? I’m not talking here about the vandalism or doing bad things, but you know, about doing that “one extra” push or step just to test the water and how cold it really is.
When did we all became slaves of our own brain and have started to overthink everything!? When did we started to ask so many questions and building up a feeling of fear because we can’t find the answers to all of them?
One quote always rings in my head: “What would you do and how far would you go if you wouldn’t be afraid?” That is so true and very thought provoking at the same time. Just think for a sec… How much we would all do and how far we would all get if this, anxious feel of fear wouldn’t stop us? If we wouldn’t be afraid of taking a risk in anything, from our relationships and jobs to other segments in our lives… How much more wider our horizons, experiences and better everyday life would be?
You do know, my dear readers that “fear”, such thing simply does not exist. We are the ones who bring it into our lives and we’re the ones who are such pros in making the fear stay present in our day-to-day lives. Being aware or responsible aren’t the same thing as being afraid of something. In reality, fear just disables us from thinking clear and makes us only make more bad choices faster. Fear disables us from fully ever accomplishing anything at our best or reaching those dreams and goals which we’re longing for so much…
Fear is an illusion, but I don’t know if it’s ever possible to fully let go of this illusion and live fearlessly. I believe that we can at least try our best to control it and always take a moment to breathe or take a step back before we act on anything out of fear.
So, message of this post is – NO FEAR dear people! No fear that you’ll do wrong, choose wrong, etc… Every choice which you make, every step that you take, fear not that you’re going in the right direction and walking the path you’ve been supposed to take since the day you were born.
P.S. Special thank you to my brother for taking these awesome outfit photos! 🙂
I’m wearing: Espadrilles – Chanel, Bag & bracelet – Balenciaga, Shorts, top, jacket, headband and earrings – Zara
There’s a thought that’s been on my mind a lot lately… Sometimes, it’s been so present in my daily life that I’ve been loosing sleep over it. Maybe because I’m a too sensitive soul, maybe because I’m a mom that wants the best future and society possible for my daughter… Maybe it’s just because I bleed?! I bleed like everybody else does… Some people hide their sorrows better, some aren’t as skilful, but we all do, indeed bleed. What I’m talking about is – judging! Why do we judge each other so easily? We are not know it alls and we’re not more special than the person we’re “looking wrong” at.
We’re beautiful, unique creatures, all sent to this earth with our unique personality which was sent down here to make a difference… Even the smallest difference is a significant one and the one that was supposed to be done. Maybe we were sent here to influence by talking or maybe by singing… Maybe we were supposed to “touch” other people’s hearts by our beautiful paintings… Maybe we were sent down here to be somebody’s mom, a life teacher, maybe a daughter which will hold our hand through though moments in life, maybe we were supposed to write so beautifully that we would inspire others by that. We were all sent down to this earth with a special purpose and a good, positive, kind one that is.
Something that we might not all be aware of is that as much as we are unique, everybody else is too. As much as we’r vulnerable, others are too… No matter what it may seem on the outside, we all need the support from each other, understanding, love.
Way too many times I’ve seen people pointing fingers at each other, starting or continuing constant fights over such meaningless things… So many times bad and ugly things overshadow the beautiful moments we could be living. Only if we would see more clearly, only if we would try bit harder to be there for each other, if we would try to be more acceptive and understanding of each other, this world would be a much better and more promising place to raise our children in.
We both have good and bad sides inside of us… We are the devil that we feed. What you give out is what you build yourself of. The bad thoughts about yourself or others will always prevent you from completely finding beauty, goodness and magic of life… But remember, once you’ll bleed, you’ll want that saving, comforting hand and there won’t be a single one if you’ve lacked to give one when it was needed.
If we would just open up our eyes more often and instead of staring into our phones, tv and laptop screen and instead of living on the “auto-mode”, maybe we would see how much we and everybody around us needs a change, help and a promise of a better future.
I’m wearing: Dress – Zara, Sandals – Isabel Marant, Bag – Gucci, Sunglasses – Chanel, Ring – Deni design, Bracelet – Givenchy
That’s how I feel like about my daughter… We are one heart in two bodies. Ever since she was born, my world has completely changed and has never been the same. Each day, esp. since she has grown up a bit and is away at kindergarten or at a playdate, I feel that half of my heart is “gone” with her. Whenever she’s hurt or sad, I feel it double as she does… If she’s happy and smiling, I’m double as happy as she is.
I feel like this world is the most beautiful place ever each time I see her sunlike wide smile and diamond spark in her eyes shine the beauty and pureness of her soul from the inside. Becoming a mom, I didn’t take it as something that makes me somewhat better, smarter or more important than any other woman around, but being a mom def. has thought me so much about life, feelings, worries, etc. more than any other “role” in this life could. Children are our biggest teachers and they always speak the truth, no matter if we like to hear it or not. As much as I like to hear my daughter tell me how she thinks that I’m the best mom ever and that she hopes to become like me someday, I also don’t like to hear when she complains at times that I work so much and we haven’t managed to play a board game we were supposed to play 2 days ago. If anybody can quickly shake me up and make me rethink my daily life, habits, choices and “forces me” to get my time management and scheduling in order, then it’s her.
She also thought me, or should I say has reminded me to see the world through child’s eyes more often… Something that I can pass by many times on daily basis and not see it’s beauty, she will spot it immediately and see so much in perhaps, so little… Taking a moment to really “look up” and around yourself just the way that she does, made me remember what’s the core of life… To see beauty everywhere, to be happy about everything and anything. As long as we’re breathing, as long as we’re jumping in the muddy puddles, as long as we’re enjoying the sun that’s shining while laying in the park on the freshly grown green grass, as long as we stuff our faces in ice cream cones and laugh together, as long as we hold onto those precious little moments that make life so special, we’ll forget about any worries we might’ve had.
Life can be so simple, so real and so good, only if we change the way we see things and how we act or react to what happens to us on daily basis.
They say that a woman has always been a woman and she will forever be a woman, but mother, mother has been born when the child is born… The moment that birth cord has been cut, one heart has been split in two newborn bodies, one body of a child and another one of a mother. None of them existed up until that moment. That is so true! I have and always will be a woman, the one that loves unconditionally, the one that is silly, the one that is vulnerable and strong at the same time… The one that is bit crazy and different but has pure heart and a soul that hold so much inside… The one that wants to inspire and help, the one that wants to go out with her friends and have fun… But I’m also a mother… Something I never thought I’d be, something I have never been even imagining what it feels or looks like to be a mother. I’m a mother that I hope my daughter will be proud of someday and will look up to me when she decides to give birth to two bodies of one heart…
Happy Mother’s Day to me and to every single beautiful mom that I know in real or this “virtual” world!
Have a good Monday everybody!
I’m wearing: Sneakers – New Balance, Jeans – Tiger of Sweden, Sweater – Max Mara, Kimono – Asos, Bag & bracelet – Balenciaga, Sunglasses – Chloe
Happy month of May everybody!! How was your weekend? Did you had a nice May Day celebrations? I had a chill weekend which consisted of long walks, “sucking up” all of the sunshine ( weather was incredible ) and having an ice cream by the beach. I went to Sea Life as well since I love the sea world and it’s creatures. 🙂 Sea Life always makes me calm…
I love the idea and feeling of new, fresh beginnings and every time, when the 1st of month comes around, I feel that I have a chance to press that invisible “restart” button, sort out my thoughts, have a conversation with my inner being and get a clearer picture of the path I’ll be taking on that month(s).
I feel that the time which we’re given in this life is a gift and a curse at the same time. It’s a gift, because if we use our time right, we can do so much, we can make a big difference in the world eventually and we can def. someday die knowing that we’ve done it and seen it all… But if we don’t use the time that we’ve been given to the max, we’ll always feel somehow “lost”, uncomplished and as if the time just slipped out of our hands. E’ll wake up someday when we’re suddenly 10 years older and will have no idea where did the time in between pass by.
Writing down 5 things I’m thankful for and 5 things that I want to accomplish/ do each month does help me see and feel that I’m using my “fresh start” correctly or they give me perspective on what I could and want to do more of in the next month.
Couple of years ago I had the attitude of “there’s still time” and a lot of days were taken for granted because of that. I only now see that the time we’ve been given is so precious, uncontrollable and it might end tomorrow, so hitting the refresh or restart button every 1st of the month has proven to be a very good thing for me.. It also made me much more humble in sense that I’ve learned to find the beauty everywhere around me, in the smallest of the things. Hitting the restart button made me see that when you do a lot of little, but significant things each month, you’ll end up having a year that will equal the value of 5 years of being “lost in translation”.
Go, hit that restart button today and make this month of May the best one so far. 🙂
I’m wearing: Ballerinas – Chanel, Bag – Gucci, Scarf & trench – Burberry, Sunglasses – Celine, Dress & ring – Free People, Bracelet – Kate Spade, Longline blazer – L.A.M.B