Monday morning… My alarm clock didn’t beep yet and there’re almost two hours until I have to wake up. Do I still try to sleep a bit or do I get up and enjoy some “me time” which I haven’t been indulging in for what it feels like forever? Hm… Screw that princess, beauty sleep, I’m getting up!
Do you believe in past lives? Do you believe that you had a past life, that you’re a traveller in time? I do…
We are born perfect. Little angels sent to the hands of our parents, completely unaware of anything, not even having a good sight, not being able to speak or move on our own, yet, we come to this earth as a perfection. Our parents see us as a beautiful gift… As we grow up and become more aware of ourselves and world that surrounds us, we realise that there are equally wonderful, perfect human beings around us too. We see our parents as our queens and kings, moms are the most beautiful creatures ever and dads are the charmers in their own way too. 😉 When we looked at ourselves in the mirror as little babies or toddlers, we would finally be aware of ourselves too. We would see how beautiful and cute we are, we would smile back at the reflection in the mirror and run off happily, minding our own day…
Good Monday morning everybody! How was your weekend? I hope that you had as much fun and great times as I did. I feel that I was all over the place ever since September started and I’ve been very happy and thankful for that, because I’ve met some incredibly amazing and inspiring people, I’ve spent lots of time with friends, attended some cool events and did tons of work as well as my conceptual photography shooting/ planning and agreeing on the future shoots. I’m set on having an exhibition next year in Spring and if everything goes well and as planned, creating it will keep me very occupied and hopefully on the top of my creative game until the end of this year.
Happy month of May everybody!! How was your weekend? Did you had a nice May Day celebrations? I had a chill weekend which consisted of long walks, “sucking up” all of the sunshine ( weather was incredible ) and having an ice cream by the beach. I went to Sea Life as well since I love the sea world and it’s creatures. 🙂 Sea Life always makes me calm…
I love the idea and feeling of new, fresh beginnings and every time, when the 1st of month comes around, I feel that I have a chance to press that invisible “restart” button, sort out my thoughts, have a conversation with my inner being and get a clearer picture of the path I’ll be taking on that month(s).
I feel that the time which we’re given in this life is a gift and a curse at the same time. It’s a gift, because if we use our time right, we can do so much, we can make a big difference in the world eventually and we can def. someday die knowing that we’ve done it and seen it all… But if we don’t use the time that we’ve been given to the max, we’ll always feel somehow “lost”, uncomplished and as if the time just slipped out of our hands. E’ll wake up someday when we’re suddenly 10 years older and will have no idea where did the time in between pass by.
Writing down 5 things I’m thankful for and 5 things that I want to accomplish/ do each month does help me see and feel that I’m using my “fresh start” correctly or they give me perspective on what I could and want to do more of in the next month.
Couple of years ago I had the attitude of “there’s still time” and a lot of days were taken for granted because of that. I only now see that the time we’ve been given is so precious, uncontrollable and it might end tomorrow, so hitting the refresh or restart button every 1st of the month has proven to be a very good thing for me.. It also made me much more humble in sense that I’ve learned to find the beauty everywhere around me, in the smallest of the things. Hitting the restart button made me see that when you do a lot of little, but significant things each month, you’ll end up having a year that will equal the value of 5 years of being “lost in translation”.
Go, hit that restart button today and make this month of May the best one so far. 🙂
I’m wearing: Ballerinas – Chanel, Bag – Gucci, Scarf & trench – Burberry, Sunglasses – Celine, Dress & ring – Free People, Bracelet – Kate Spade, Longline blazer – L.A.M.B
I came to a conclusion that for the past 28 years, I’ve been trying too hard to “fit in”! I’ve been doing everything “the right” way, just that it was never really the right way for me… So in reality, I was working against myself. This whole time… For almost three decades I’ve been trying to “box” myself and be something that has never been “me”!
I always had this tiny little voice, my own inner voice telling me what it wants and how I should do things, react, act… But I have rarely listened to it. Most of the time I’ve been either ignoring it or make it quiet. Guess what? Did I fit in, after all of my hard efforts to do so? Nope! Was I happy while trying to fit in and always missing out in doing so? Nope! Was the final outcome what I wanted it to be? Nope!
The answer was always no and the only time when I did feel good and alive was when very rarely I did listen to that little voice inside of me and did things “my way” or have been myself. The people I was surrounded with would then point it out as me being “weird” or not doing things the right way. They would get upset for that one moment seeing a different person than the one that they’ve been used to having around, would get confused and of course I would take it as something really bad and personal… I would think that : “There you go when you try to NOT fit in and when you don’t alter yourself to other people’s wishes and expectations.” Then I would just go back into trying to fit into all sorts of boxes that weren’t mine… Filling the boots that weren’t mine to walk in.
Do you know when I did become happier, more fulfilled and inspired? Only a few months ago, when reached that final, rock bottom of realisation when I truly didn’t know who I was. For a moment I stood in front of the mirror and I simply didn’t know whom I was looking at? Who was this woman that was staring back at me? What are her dreams? What are her wishes? What are her thoughts?
I was always afraid to voice my real opinion, my real dreams and wishes because I already “knew” that because they’re not the most common or usual ones, people won’t approve of me and I won’t be able to fit in. If I’m not fitting in, I won’t be socially accepted and it’s better to alter myself and do fit in… WRONG!
I could have saved myself so much time, so many problems and wrongly traveled roads if I would have let myself just to BE who I am, who I was supposed to be all of this time.
Now… Now I’m unapologetically myself, every single day and I’m blooming of happiness and proudness for being who I am, for not being ashamed of anything that makes me – ME and for living the life the only way I ever want to live it – saying what I really feel, think, see… Not something that people expect me to say or think. Now… Now there are finally people in my life that accept me and love me for who I really am, there’re no wrong or right things to do or say in front of them. There is just me, in all of the beauty of my true character and guess what? I have never accepted or loved myself more than I do now, because now, for the first time ever I am finally at peace with myself. I’m free!
This is something that I can wholeheartedly suggest to all of my readers. We were all born to walk this Earth in our own way in our unique pair of boots, so don’t try to trade your road and boots trying to fit in and walk the ones that were never meant for you… Walk your road in your own boots with your head up high, confident and trusting that even the roads less traveled are the ones worth travelling, esp. if they’re your own ones… They’re worth that extra effort for choosing to be true to YOURSELF!
Much love to all of you! Take care sweet people!
I’m wearing: Shoes,bracelet and vest – Asos, Bag – Celine, Jeans – Tiger of Sweden, Blouse – Mango, Earrings – House of Harlow 1960
Yep! Helsinki is a true Winter Wonderland! Ever since I have returned from my holidays in Croatia, I’ve been facing tons and tons of snow, very low temperatures and it was simply impossible for me to take any outfit photos. Indoor places are usually malls or cafes/ restaurants, there’re always tons of people mingling and the light is somewhat yellowish, so my chances were ZERO in getting a good material for the new outfit post.
Good Friday everybody!! I just couldn’t keep on writing post after post without actually saying much about myself and what I’ve been feeling like lately, so I thought that this Friday would be a perfect day to bring up a subject that I’ve been thinking about a lot and am SURE that a lot of girls who read my blog have been either raised similarly or have faced similar situations to mine in their lives…
Hello to the new month of November! I simply can’t wrap my head around the thought that in less than two months, we’ll be celebrating Christmas!?! This IS my favourite time of the year and I’m all getting into the jolly “jingle bell” mood already now, but I still can’t believe that this crazy and life changing year is slowly coming to it’s end.
Fall is definitely in full swing here in Helsinki! I’m more and more often waking up to rainy mornings or walking back home in the evening while the rain is “washing up” the city’s streets. As much as I love my sunshine and relaxing time by the beach, I also love the feeling of freshness and new beginning that the Fall brings. I don’t know how or why but I suddenly feel so much more creative, focused and find it easy to take on any work task. How about you my readers? Do you like Fall and why?