Alone… Lonely… Two alike yet very different words. To be alone or to be lonely isn’t the same thing. When I was a little kid, I used to be super shy and not very social person, so many times I did feel lonely even though I have grown up in a big family with 3 other siblings.
Happy Monday my dear readers! I hope that your weekend went well and that it has also set you off to a productive start of the new working week. I had pretty chilled two days revolving around catching up on some work I’ve been behind with due to my exhaustion from nasty virus infection I’ve been fighting for the past two weeks.
From my usual “Good morning everybody!”, I am going to start this post by writing good afternoon dear people from all over the world who stop by daily to check out this blog and which new posts I have prepared for you. After being completely “delusional” for over a week and fighting a super nasty virus, today is the first day that I feel much better and can think clearly again.
Travelling… Something I’ve been a “fan” of since the first trip I ever took and it was when I was only few months old. 😀 First trip which I clearly remember was when I was about 8-9 years old and have travelled to Moscow, Russia with my mom and sister to visit our Russian family and relatives.
My mom always said that I was the easiest kid to travel with because you could literally “pack” me into a suitcase and send me off anywhere and I’d be happy! I was such an explorer since the early age and even though I have travelled a lot in the past 29 years, I still haven’t seen even a glimpse of what I want to see around the world.
Happy 2017 everybody!!! First post of the new year is here and I wanted to take my time writing it to make sure that I’m publishing the right material. I’m visiting Croatia at the moment and am happy to start this year by travelling and taking some well deserved time off.
I’ve spent couple of days in the capital city, Zagreb and was so happy to meet some of my oldest friends as well as have a coffee with some of my Croatian blogging colleagues. The weather is beautiful and even though it’s been cold, the bright daylight and occasional sun rays made a world of difference in how energetic and happy I feel.
It’s the most wonderful time of the year they say… I couldn’t but notice this weekend that magic has been bit “thrown” aside and the craziness of shopping everything and anything, pushing in the overcrowded shops and such has taken over everybody… Everywhere!
While I’m “guilty” of shopping last minute for the Christmas presents and thinking of people whom I love and what I want them to receive on these holidays… I had to just stop for a moment and think of what is it that Christmas is all about? What is the true essence of it?
Time… Took me by my wings, kept me places and surrounded by the souls I was not prepared to travel to or meet. Time also brought me to places and got me to meet souls who have been such an essence of my life. Some places and people will make you feel as if the time has stopped or at least you forget about checking your watch and can barely hear that little ticking reminding us that each tick-tock makes our star dust made bodies older and more vulnerable, closer to it’s expiration date.
For some reason, the past week I’ve come across two big contrasts in people’s personalities: the kindness, humbleness as well as pretentiousness, egoism and no compassion for others. My brain and soul are of such kind which never stop thinking, feeling, wondering and live through everything 100%, so the processing of some people and situations might take a while for me… This time of the year, just a little bit before Christmas is when I’m more than ever sensitive to cold, be it from the weather or from the people’s personalities, both get to me strongly.
Some years ago, I had this internal fight with myself that I have to do everything perfectly, that I need to be perfect and that only when these two are “all perfect”, I’ll get to where I want to be in life and I’ll get what I want from life… NOT!
First of all, there’s no such thing as perfection since I’m not a god, I’m just a human with tons of flaws. My flaws will be a great match to some other people’s flaws and they’ll see them as something fun, interesting and nothing near bad or disturbing. My flaws will also be of annoyance to others and since I can’t and am “too old” to want to anymore people please or try to blend in to perfectly do or fit in somewhere, I’ll rather call it a day and concentrate to get the best of my flaws and share it with people who love me for me.
Over the past week and half, it got really cold and very Wintery in Helsinki. First snow arrived and so did the low temp., slippery ground and ice tramps everywhere. Trench coats and sneakers were replaced by layers and layers of clothes, Winter coats and boots. I have to admit that I did love the appearance of the snow, but I did not enjoy one bit of coldness and having to wear tons of layers. The forecast savvy people are predicting that the snow will melt away by the end of this week and that the weather will warm up a little before Narnia like snow storms come back again. 🙂
