Dear Frances, I’ve been meaning to write you… Thank you for making me feel so feminine, empowered, confident and strong! Thank you for being a perfect “cherry on top” to a newly found old me, just better, more improved version. I’m approaching my 29th birthday and I have never felt better in my own skin. Pair of shoes like these… Work like a pure magic in how a girl feels!
I grew up in a small village, while that was a blessing because I was protected at all times and I had a huge freedom of living a carefree childhood, playing for as long as I wanted outdoors, hiding in the forest, just sitting by the sea for an hour or even staying at my friend’s place over for lunch without having to inform my family about it ( there was no cellphones but only phones and after only few phone calls around, my parents would know where I was at ). To some extent, growing up in such a small and closed community, it was a bit of problem for me later on in my life. I was scared of being introduced to new people or go out in a big group of people.
Today I felt like taking a small break from my usual Monday inspiration posts and do something else instead. I’d like to share with you couple of facts about me which you might find interesting or could relate to. 🙂 I hope that you had a great weekend and are ready to kick off this new week with lots of energy and good inspiration flow. *Finnish text in the bottom.
I’m a person who barely ever watches TV. If I do watch TV then it’s usually Netflix. I never buy newspapers and I usually never read any even if I happen to see some newspapers at the cashier or at a favourite cafe.
I guess that thanks to FaceBook and my active friends, I do stay quite informed about what is going on in the world, but I take everything I read with a grain of salt and a “distant viewer” approach, meaning that I don’t take everything I read to be true, important or as dramatic as media tries to portray it to be.
Media is a powerful tool, I would say that they have the power to ruin and build the world. That is one of the reasons why I filter every news I come across and don’t allow big amounts of unnecessary information bother me. I like to live in “my own world” the one where I’m aware of what is going on around me and I do fulfil my “duties” but I also prefer to stay in that part of my own world which is ruled by love, goodness, inspiration, creativity and music. I live by the rules of heart and commands of the soul and I don’t know for better… No matter how many times I get “screwed” over for giving too much, loving too much and feeling everything so deeply… I end up hurt and upset quite many times, but I can’t live differently… I can’t “harden” my heart, be more thougher, distance myself from who I am by birth.
Ever since I was a little child, I have been led by my holy trinity of three : love, sea and music. If I had those three surrounding me, I was happy. To love and be loved in return is my motto and the biggest blessing and curse in my life. I always love too much, but so often stumble upon “closed” and hard hearts… In the past couple of years I’ve dealt with those kind of hearts too often and it all made me ask myself: “Where is the love?!” Even by filtering all of the media and information that reaches me, I can not understand all of the shootings and bombings going on all over the world. When was the spilling of blood an answer to anything? Who gives the right to a human to lift his/ her hand over the destiny of another person(s)?
Dear people… Hate, envy and darkness aren’t the roads to be followed… We all have the goodness, love and light inside of us, so the more you nurture them, the more they will prevail the dark side of us, which we all have. We are all made of yin and yang, it’s up to us which side we will choose to be. We can’t and won’t be another Mother Theresa and we don’t need to, that’s not what this article is all about, but I can not but not to realise that people have never been more as distant from each other and the source of goodness and love as they are in 2016. Situation needs to change immediately or we’ll be as good as robots and look more of a Arnold Schwarzenegger from the Terminator movie than a beautiful, sensitive and loving human race that we are supposed to be.
Peace, love and understanding… It’s not so hard to remember, acquire and spread these three words/ actions/ feelings. Let’s start today!
My heart goes out to all those affected in Beirut bombing and Florida shooting.
As you might remember from my previous posts, I’ve been mentioning that I would be attending my friend’s wedding and it happened two days ago in a little town on the South of Croatia. Little town in which I grew up, went to school in and have so much that still connects me to it. Some of the memories will never die and I will always in a way or another have special place for this town in my heart.
I was happy to bring along my daughter with me to the wedding ceremony to witness one of the most beautiful moments and highlights of any relationship. I know that real love doesn’t need any papers, stamps or “files” but when there is a wedding happening already, it’s such a sweet and magical moment which makes everybody equally happy and excited to see the smiles and proudness on the faces of the bride and groom.
Seeing my friend and her now husband getting married, having that magical love aura surrounding them and being just so truly happy in that moment, right there and then surrounded by the closest people made me realise how little we need to be truly happy and how often we think that we need this or that in order to be someday completely happy. I have already touched base on this same subject before and it’s more clear to me now than ever before that…
There’s no such thing as complete happiness and there are no formulas on how to get happiness come to or be part of your daily life. We all hurt and cry, we all laugh and love, it’s just up to our inner selves how much we’ll let the real happiness be part of our daily lives. Seeing my daughter being excited and happy about the smallest things such as Kinder Surprise and which toy she’ll get in it made me think more and realise that happiness truly does lie in the smallest things and it’s never about the big things, let alone materialistic ones. I have been “guilty” of thinking that having more will give you more happiness, stability, closure… Whatever! That’s bullocks my dear readers. Core of real happiness is inside of us and it’s not up to anybody else OR hoarding on things to make us happy… It’s up to us to let ourselves BE happy and appreciate the smallest, daily life miracles. It is a miracle and a pure happiness to open your eyes every day and know that you are alive, that you breathe, that you have a possibility to do a good deed, that you have a chance to put a smile on another person’s face, that you have the choice to surprise a friend with a flower bouquet… That you have an option to be happy and spread happiness anywhere you go. It’s not in the big things, it’s not in materialistic things… It’s in that kid’s honest smile, it’s in that perfect ice cream ball in a cone, it’s in the sun that is shining today…
Thank you for reading and commenting my dears, you are among other “small things” what makes me so happy day in-day out. 🙂
I’m wearing: Shoes – Marc by Marc Jacobs, Jeans – Tiger of Sweden, Shirt – Pepe Jeans, Bag – Chloe, Bracelet – HOH1960, Long blazer – Uusi Kuu, Trench – , Sunnies – Dita, Earrings – Chanel
I came to a conclusion that for the past 28 years, I’ve been trying too hard to “fit in”! I’ve been doing everything “the right” way, just that it was never really the right way for me… So in reality, I was working against myself. This whole time… For almost three decades I’ve been trying to “box” myself and be something that has never been “me”!
I always had this tiny little voice, my own inner voice telling me what it wants and how I should do things, react, act… But I have rarely listened to it. Most of the time I’ve been either ignoring it or make it quiet. Guess what? Did I fit in, after all of my hard efforts to do so? Nope! Was I happy while trying to fit in and always missing out in doing so? Nope! Was the final outcome what I wanted it to be? Nope!
The answer was always no and the only time when I did feel good and alive was when very rarely I did listen to that little voice inside of me and did things “my way” or have been myself. The people I was surrounded with would then point it out as me being “weird” or not doing things the right way. They would get upset for that one moment seeing a different person than the one that they’ve been used to having around, would get confused and of course I would take it as something really bad and personal… I would think that : “There you go when you try to NOT fit in and when you don’t alter yourself to other people’s wishes and expectations.” Then I would just go back into trying to fit into all sorts of boxes that weren’t mine… Filling the boots that weren’t mine to walk in.
Do you know when I did become happier, more fulfilled and inspired? Only a few months ago, when reached that final, rock bottom of realisation when I truly didn’t know who I was. For a moment I stood in front of the mirror and I simply didn’t know whom I was looking at? Who was this woman that was staring back at me? What are her dreams? What are her wishes? What are her thoughts?
I was always afraid to voice my real opinion, my real dreams and wishes because I already “knew” that because they’re not the most common or usual ones, people won’t approve of me and I won’t be able to fit in. If I’m not fitting in, I won’t be socially accepted and it’s better to alter myself and do fit in… WRONG!
I could have saved myself so much time, so many problems and wrongly traveled roads if I would have let myself just to BE who I am, who I was supposed to be all of this time.
Now… Now I’m unapologetically myself, every single day and I’m blooming of happiness and proudness for being who I am, for not being ashamed of anything that makes me – ME and for living the life the only way I ever want to live it – saying what I really feel, think, see… Not something that people expect me to say or think. Now… Now there are finally people in my life that accept me and love me for who I really am, there’re no wrong or right things to do or say in front of them. There is just me, in all of the beauty of my true character and guess what? I have never accepted or loved myself more than I do now, because now, for the first time ever I am finally at peace with myself. I’m free!
This is something that I can wholeheartedly suggest to all of my readers. We were all born to walk this Earth in our own way in our unique pair of boots, so don’t try to trade your road and boots trying to fit in and walk the ones that were never meant for you… Walk your road in your own boots with your head up high, confident and trusting that even the roads less traveled are the ones worth travelling, esp. if they’re your own ones… They’re worth that extra effort for choosing to be true to YOURSELF!
Much love to all of you! Take care sweet people!
I’m wearing: Shoes,bracelet and vest – Asos, Bag – Celine, Jeans – Tiger of Sweden, Blouse – Mango, Earrings – House of Harlow 1960
Good Friday morning everybody! I would like to thank you all for the feedback on my previous post. I have read every single comment and some of them were absolutely wonderful because they were honest, insightful and you have opened up/ got engaged in the discussion which was the point of the whole post.
Yep! Can you guys believe that we’ve come to the end of 2015?! I simply can’t even wrap my head around the fact that in only 4 days from now, we’ll be in 2016! I still remember celebrating year 2000 and thinking how super cool the number is and it felt so “futuristic” but fast forward 16 years to this day and we’re entering a whole new year that, just like any other beginning of the year has a BIG importance for me.
Good Friday everybody!! I just couldn’t keep on writing post after post without actually saying much about myself and what I’ve been feeling like lately, so I thought that this Friday would be a perfect day to bring up a subject that I’ve been thinking about a lot and am SURE that a lot of girls who read my blog have been either raised similarly or have faced similar situations to mine in their lives…
Fantastic Wednesday is in front of us dear people so let’s get the best out of it. I have this incredibly big and positive fighting spirit/ mode going on and right now, nothing seems difficult or impossible to go through with.
